Happy One year

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Well, I’ve been planning this day for a while now, today marks the one year anniversary that I created this blog and posted my first post about how I wanted to lose weight, Well, where have this blog and I been?

Well, I’ve lost 20 pounds, I’ve been on crutches, hyper extended my knee, spent three days in the hospital, started sophomore year, had a great season of golf, made the basketball team, completed the basketball season, realized that badminton wasn’t for me, and made endless attempts at posting daily and here we are, a year later with over 100 posts, over 400 followers, and so much support from all of you out there that makes me want to keep going. If I do say so, myself, that’s been a great year.

Now, even through all of the friendships and memories I’ve made on this blog, the outcome isn’t what I pictured. Before I hurt my knee, I thought I’d be 140 pounds at the end of summer, but I was 20 over, I thought I’d be slim and rocking that skin-tight dress to my dances, but it didn’t turn out that way. So, what I’ve decided to do is start over, from square one, and see if this summer can be even more successful than last, I started p90x today and I am very excited to get my butt kicked in the next 90 days, however, this blog carries baggage that I don’t want to deal with, so I am making a new blog,  I have yet to post or design anything yet, so it’s very barren, but I will get to posting ASAP. I want to not only talk about what I ate and random school updates, but also recipes, other workouts, and other random stuff that comes to mind.

So, it’s been an absolute joy with his blog, and this year has been marvelous.

So once more

Happy Shredding

Alicia 🙂

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It’s April 1st

So, today is the 1st day of April. That mans there are 54 days until summer vacation. 54 days until I want to be able to rock my strapless dresses, tank tops, short shorts, and hey, a bikini even. Today, I’m far from there. And who knows?  May 24th may come, and I still may be far from there. But, if there’s one thing I want to accomplish. That’s completing the 30-Day Shred and feeling great in the body I have. I should have finished it today. Had I not procrastinated until 10:30 at night two weeks ago, not even finish it, then the next day, “give myself a break” maybe, I’d be done. And, who knows what I’d look like. It beats me why I quit that day, I guess, I just have no motivation. Why have not motivation. When I know what eating right and exercising does? I don’t know. I know one thing for sure. My dad needs to lose 10-15 pounds in the next three months, because he is overweight, not obese but he is overweight. I know one thing; I know what being obese does to your body, your outlook on life, and Jesus, think of how it makes you look. I want to keep my dad around for as long as possible, and if that means eating what he eats, not eating junk food and crap with him, and exercising everyday until we both lose the needed weight, that’s what I’m planning on doing, for him, and me. I’ve never really explained how I got overweight in the first place, and because Easter sparked it, I guess I’ll tell you now

Well, a few years ago. I found out the Easter bunny wasn’t real. I found the stash of candy my dad had beside his bed and I took it. I ate all of it. I then put the empty wrappers in my closet. Then, when Girl Scout cookies were delivered I ate, I don’t even know how many, boxes and boxes of tagalongs. I kept this stash hidden for the next year. I put on 25 pounds in three months. Then, in January of the next year, my grandma had surgery and my dad stayed home for the day to get my sister and I after school little did I know, he’s clean out my closet and pile all of the candy I had eaten over the course of that year. On January 30th, 2008. I wrote in my diary “Hi! I’m very mad because my dad found the extra candy I ate over the years and I am not happy. I know it’s wrong so I’ll show you all what I ate and how I look (I hate my life) **Cue picture of table with approximately foot of candy and me, reaching into the pantry with what looks to be the biggest gut I’ve ever seen *** I’m sorry how fat I am but I can’t help it!!!!!” If I may say something, I was 10 years old and I already hated my life and was putting my body down. I’m sorry but this doesn’t make sense. I, was a happy child on the outside but inside, trust me, I thought about suicide on a regular basis.

And, so I kept struggling with my weight for quite some time. I lied about my weight in school when we had to make our nutrition pyramid. I knew how much I weighed but my friend looked over every few questions so I went with 100 pounds. I knew I was more like 175 or more. I hadn’t been 100 pounds in forever. When I was 8, I weighed 120 pounds. I didn’t really think I could keep gaining weight until May 2011, when I reached 199.2 pounds, my doctor told me “Your weight has skyrocketed. I want you to get down to 165 pounds” Skyrocketed. That memory still flashes before my mind from time to time and I can’t help but thank her for saying that.  If she hadn’t, I’d be bigger and depressed. It was probably that or the fact that I tried on a size 16 dresses for 8th grade graduation and it almost didn’t zip.

Another reason I want to succeed at weight loss is for my grandma. She died of cancer when I was in 8th grade; I’m guessing this is why my weight skyrocketed. I don’t know. But she passed of lung cancer in October of 8th grade, and I wanted to die, She didn’t even see me at my highest and will never see me at my lowest.

To this day, if I didn’t have a hold of my weight, I’d be depressed and I don’t think anyone would know. I was always so happy with friends and family. It was just by myself, I contemplated suicide. A few years ago, I read this thing where old people, if they felt it was time to go, could tell themselves to die in their sleep, and they would. So, every night for month and months I would say this to myself but I would still wake up.

I sometimes think about what pushed me into being depressed. I never believe I was depressed, but thinking about it, I was. And no one noticed. That made it worse. I thought no one cared enough about me to see I was falling into depression. But, it was my own fault. I wasn’t letting people into my life, I still don’t. It’s my terrible fear of rejection talking. I feel like if I let people in, they won’t like whom I am and they’ll leave. Maybe it’s the time a girl facebook messaged me “idont care. u could go kill urself no one would care but ur mom” That really ripped out my soul. I really don’t know, but one thing’s for sure, what keeps me going, is my friends. My sister, the Internet, and other teenager like me. I smile. I always smile; it makes people’s days. People love my dimples and tell it to me too. “The people that smile and laugh the most are the ones who are suffering the most. Because laughter isn’t only the best medicine, it’s also the best disguise.” I think it’s true. When you frown, people ask you what’s the matter. When you smile, people automatically think you’re fine so I smile and make others feel better in the process. My sister. I always wanted an older sister and I know I can’t leave her alone without me. No matter how much we fight, she gets me through the day and I hope I help her get through hers too. The Internet and other teenagers like me. Well, I knew if I ever killed myself, my sister and her friends, my friends even, would think that it’s okay to kill yourself if you get into a rut. So, I think my biggest accomplishment, not losing the weight, but for continuing my life when I wanted to die. So, that’s what I did, That’s why I did it, I’ve lost 40 pounds and have 25-30 to go. I don’t care how long it takes, healthy and happy is going to happen. So, it’s April 1st.

 

13 in 13 Update

Well, as most of you know, I committed to the 13 in 13 challenge in the end of December, and I’m pretty determined to complete it. Starting it is a must too, so let’s work on that.

Sick!! Woot Woot!

Well, the title of this post isn’t really all that true. I am sick with a sinus infection and I was put on antibiotics for the next 10 days. Amoxicillin and nose nasal spray twice a day. That’s fun.

If some of you guys saw my most recent update post with pictures, you may notice that there is a red mark on my stomach. I thought it was a rash. It turns out I am allergic to some metal in my belt. I was really confused when my doctor told me this, because it’s only been present for the past  month or so. Thennn, I looked back in my belt owning, and realized that about 2 months ago, I bought a new belt. Great. So, yes, I am most likely allergic to nickel or copper or whatever the heck is in my belt. Yay. That’s all. I hope to return to school tomorrow only to miss another day of school on thursday. My mom is getting surgery and she needs me to take care of her while she is bedridden for the day, so yes, missing three of the five days this week. So, my three-day weekend will be filled with homework doing. Yay.

Happy Shredding

Alicia 🙂

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P.S. I was weighed today and I am 162.2 lbs. I’ve lost three pounds in the last month. That’s fine… I guess

#28DBC Challenge Update

Hello all. I stayed home today because  I am sick, so… Why not blog and update my blog for this challenge while I’m at it.

I told you guys last night  that I needed 4 new things becasue I didn’t have a twitter. I got an email saying that it would really help me, so I got a twitter. You can go here or just look to my side bar and follow me. Thanks!

So, I have completed quite a few of the things on the list just in case I pull  an Alicia and don’t post for the rest of the month…

 

Blogging

Add/update categories (BONUS: Add/update menus and navigation bars)

Update and enhance your About page (BONUS: take new headshot and add to sidebar)

Update and enhance your Contact page

Add to/update your subscription options (BONUS: Add email feature)

Update and enhance your sharing options (BONUS: Make sure that your Twitter name is pre-populated in any sharing tools you have)

Find your five most popular posts and edit for grammar, broken links, add new information/photos (BONUS: Do this for your 10 most popular posts)

Update your menus/navigation bar

 

Social Media

Update profile photo/avatar (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Update header (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Review and refresh bios, including URLS (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Review and refresh follows/friends

Add/edit your Gravatar

 

Communication

Add/update your email signature to include blog URL and other platform links    (I did this one today)

 

So, I’m about half-way done. Woot. Adios.

 

Happy Shredding

Alicia 🙂

 

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#28DBC

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Hello again, As some of you may know, i enjoy doing challenges. I feel like I actually accomplish things when I do/ attempt them, so why not do another one, now that basketball has ended…

basically, this was created by her And basically it’s to sort of declutter, reorganize and such during the shortest month of the year. She gave some suggestions of what to do, and I will follow them almost to the point, except for the ones about twitter and facebook, because I do not have a twitter and facebook associated with this blog. 🙂

 

 

i need to complete these things…

Blogging

Add/update categories (BONUS: Add/update menus and navigation bars)

Update and enhance your About page (BONUS: take new headshot and add to sidebar)

Update and enhance your Contact page

Add to/update your subscription options (BONUS: Add email feature)

Update and enhance your sharing options (BONUS: Make sure that your Twitter name is pre-populated in any sharing tools you have)

Find your five most popular posts and edit for grammar, broken links, add new information/photos (BONUS: Do this for your 10 most popular posts)

Update your menus/navigation bar

 

Social Media

Update profile photo/avatar (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Update header (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Review and refresh bios, including URLS (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Review and refresh follows/friends

Create/edit lists (BONUS: Do this on all platforms)

Edit your sharing settings so that your Twitter and other handles are pre-populated (BONUS: consider adding a relevant hashtag)

Add/edit your Gravatar

 

Communication

Add/update your email signature to include blog URL and other platform links

Add a canned response (or more than one!) to address common questions you get

Create/edit your Google Reader folders for better organization

Create/edit your media kit (BONUS: Create/edit your cover letter)

Set up an email filter so all relevant emails go to a new inbox/group

Set up a new form or spreadsheet to take questions/feedback on your website

Design and print new business cards with your current information

 

Community

Comment on five blog posts (from separate websites!)

Write a post that includes links to five other posts that you found interesting

Select your favorite blog and email the owner — tell him/her why you like it, what you admire most and offer some unsolicited POSITIVE comments

 

 

So, right now I need 4 more community related things. If you have any ideas let me know! And  I’ll update these things whenever I have completed a substantial amount,  But, here come some changes!

 

Happy Shredding

Alicia 🙂

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Update with photos!

Well, hello so, I was looking back at some old posts and I realized that the last time i updated the way that i looked was in July…. That was a bit ago. i personally don’t think I look much different, but we’ll see.

June 1st, 2012

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January 1st, 2013

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To be quite honest, I don’t notice a difference in myself, until i look at these pictures. It’s when I look at these pictures that I realize how far I’ve come and how hard I’ve worked and that 20 pounds in reachable in the next three months. I can do it. 🙂

Happy Shredding

Alicia 🙂